I hate being mad at you.
5 sec..
10 sec..
I
remember...
30 sec...
60 sec...
I remember the first time I realized I loved you.
It was when I realized that anything that ever happened,
good or bad, I wanted to tell you about.
You were the first person I wanted
to know,
and I couldn't wait to tell you, and talk to you.
and, and, and.
and listen
to you, it's like I love learning new things every time I talk to you.
Sounds cheesy, hm?
Tampilkan postingan dengan label random. Tampilkan semua postingan
the first time you knew it was love.
Conversation with the time
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aku tanyakan tiga kata yang terucap begitu saja. dan disusul dengan diam. sunyi.
tidak perlu jawaban sebenarnya, karena aku tahu, aku tidak akan puas.
atau mungkin, belum.
"iya, percaya."
senyum kecil tersirat jelas, dari bibirku, tentunya. lalu apa? aku tidak akan bertanya kenapa. karena semua jawaban yang pernah kudengar terdengar sama, walaupun dengan pilihan kata berbeda. suara penyiar tersiar dari radio, kita masih membisu. tenggelam dalam tanda tanya yang sama, mungkin.
"aku percaya pertemuan kita bukan kebetulan."
katamu.
aku yakin oksipetal ini masih berfungsi dengan baik, untuk menyimpan segala detailnya. iya, kamu benar. pertemuan kita bukan kebetulan. egoisnya aku terlalu larut dalam ketakutan. memikirkan segala pikiran terburuk yang pernah ada. bedanya denganmu, kamu seorang idealis yang paling mengagumkan.
kita terlalu menikmati masa. biarlah. waktu tidak akan pernah keberatan untuk memberikan apa yang dia punya. tapi perjalanan takdir terus berjalan, mengiringi.
kita dalam garis takdir yang sama bukan?
ah, aku sudah sampai depan rumah. meminta waktu berhenti bekerja terasa percuma, dia tidak pernah menuruti permintaan siapapun. waktu memang selalu jahat. tapi disini bukan salah siapa-siapa. kita yang terlalu candu untuk saling bertemu.
"makasih ya hari ini, aku senang"
It is like smelling rain on the incoming wind.
Berhubung gue lagi nge-kost di
rumah cowok gue, akhirnya rapat koordinator alseace di adain di rumah cowok
gue. Sore-sore ketua koordinator mulai dateng, tapi ngga semua. Rapat dimulai. Dan
sialnya, ketua osis dan pelaksana nya ngga ada karena ditengah jalan katanya
mereka tiba-tiba ditilang polisi, karena cuma ketua osis gue aja yang punya ktp
akhirnya ketua pelaksana terpaksa ditahan. Tapi bodohnya, status ketua osis gue
di ktp tertulis: menikah. dia pun ikut ketilang.
Rapat selesai jam 7. Temen-temen
gue pulang, tinggal gue sama cowok gue. Heran nya dia mau ikut rapat, padahal
dia alumni. karena bosen dan ngga tau
mau ngapain, akhirnya gue ngajak dia keluar sekalian gue balik ke rumah gue.
“bentar yah! Ada yang ketinggalan
di kamar.” Sayangnya, ternyata yang dimaksud bentarnya gue itu setengah jam. Gue
turun sambil senyum-senyum panik, “hehe maaf lama”. “iya, gapapa” he said. Sumpah,
sabar banget. Pas gue turun, ternyata nyokap bokap nya baru dateng. Gue nyari
sepatu, sedangkan cowok gue izin ke orangtuanya. yang terakhir gue denger sih cuma,
“iya nanti maaf pulang agak malem, mungkin jam 2” oh well...
Bayangan gue pas gue sampai rumah
adalah mereka nyambut gue dengan pizza dan pasta hasil delivery PHD dan
coca-cola 1 liter, tapi sayangnya ngga, mereka malah bilang “eh kita baru mau
pergi. ikut yuk. siap-siap sana.”
Disinilah gue, sama cowok gue
yang akhirnya malah gue culik jalan malem-malem (read: almost midnight) bareng keluarga gue. Di mobil, adek gue
yang terakhir sama cowok gue adu bacot. Karena adek gue suka twilight dan cowok
gue suka musik pop-punk, mereka ngomongin tentang gimana ketika jacob, bella, dan
edward setelah twilight saga ini selesai akhirnya mereka memutuskan bikin band pop-punk . Kasian, cowok gue terbully sama anak 4 SD.
Kita turun di suatu tempat. Di suatu
jalan. Ada jalanan khusus putar arah yang sepi dan cuma keluarga gue yang tau
dimana letaknya. Apa sih yang menarik dari jalanan putar arah? Menariknya adalah,
ada taman di tengah-tengah jalan putaran arah itu. Dan sekali lagi, cuma keluarga
gue yang tau dimana letaknya. Kakak gue
dan adek gue duduk di batuan. Sedangkan gue merhatiin cowok gue, he looks so happy. Dia ngajak gue main
ini-itu dengan segala macem mainan buatannya. Emang di taman itu ngga ada
mainan sama sekali. Yang ada cuma pohon-pohon, jalan, dan lampu-lampu. Oh iya, ada
danau kecil juga di pinggirnya. Semua orang yang kesitu cuma dituntut niikmatin
kesunyiannya.
Tiba-tiba dari jauh nyokap gue
teriak ngajak kita balik karena udah jam 11 malem, akhirnya kita pun balik ke
rumah gue. Di rumah gue izin lagi ke nyokap, “mah mau nonton yah ma yang jam
setengah 12.” Ngga nyangka banget, dia ngizinin. Tiket udah di tangan. Untuk 2
orang, auditorium 8 seat C11 dan C12. Tapi gue sama cowok gue masih dirumah. Sampai
akhirnya jam 23.35 gue maksa dia buat jalan. “tenang sih, filmnya mulai jam
23.36 masih ada semenit lagi.” Gila apa, dia calon jurnalis bukan pembalap F1! Mana
sempet ke bioskop cuma semenit. Bioskop nya ga tetanggaan sama gue kali.
Gue ngitung dengan jarak rumah
gue ke bioskop sekitar 500 meter dan kecepatan dia nyetir 72km/jam kira-kira gue
butuh 25 menit buat sampai sana. Tapi hebatnya, kita sampai di bioskop tanpa
ketinggalan satu part pun.
We totally enjoy the movie. The movie was awesome, and he’s awesome
too. As always.
Setelah dia nganterin gue balik,
dia langsung balik. Dan bodohnya dia baru sadar kalo androidnya ketinggalan di
rumah gue besok paginya.
Besoknya, jam 7 malem gue
terpaksa harus ke suatu tempat. Karena ngga ada yang nganter, akhirnya gue mutusin
buat naik taksi. Kebetulan secara ngga sengaja gue ketemu dua temen gue yang juga mau naik
taksi. Dan mereka lebih ahli dalam hal menyetop taksi sialnya.
Kata salah satu temen gue “kalo
mau naik taksi, ada triknya. Gue sih pernah survey dan hampir dibikin kartul. Judulnya,
penelitian pengaruh celana pendek dan celana panjang dengan tingkat kesulitan
penyetopan taksi. Hasilnya, yang make celana pendek biasanya lebih cepet dapet
taksi sih. Hehehe.” *banting laptop*
Di tengah jalan, gue nelfon cowok
gue. Tapi kok yang ngangkat malah nyokap gue!
Nyokap: “halo?”
Gue : “halo? Mamah?”
Gue baru sadar gue nelfon ke
android cowok gue yang masih ketinggalan di rumah gue. Pantesan.
Nyokap: “ha...ha...halo? Vira?”
Gue: “iya mah”
Suara nyokap gue kedenger panik. Dan
kayak sesek napas.
Gue: “mah? Mamah kenapa?”
Nyokap: “Vira...? ini vira?”
Gue: “iya, kenapa mah?”
Nyokap: “KOK DISINI NAMA
CONTACTNYA ‘CLEANING SERVICE’?!”
Gue: “..........HAH?!?!”
Tiba-tiba, “tok...tok...neng,
mama nelfon tuh” supir gue ngetok kamar gue. Dengan masih pusingnya gue ngecek
hp gue dulu. ada bbm dari cowok gue “kamu dimana?” ah shit, ternyata tidur dari
siang sampe sore itu bener-bener bikin hangover dan mimpi jadi absurd.
Date a girl who loves life
Date a girl who loves life. She smiles as people pass her on the street. Everyone on her block knows her name… and she know theirs. When someone sitting next to her on the train strikes up a conversation, she listens to them… even when she suspects they might be crazy. Sometimes she laughs with them, sometimes she gives them advice, and sometimes she is so moved by their story that she runs home and tells you. She remembers every detail. This is also obvious by the small gifts she gives you, buying you a toy you mentioned Santa forgot when you were a child.
Take her to the park and she’ll take a photo of the trees to remember the leaves in the winter. Walk around the block with her and she’ll notice something new even though you’ve walked past the same spot hundreds of times. Spotting a table in a trash heap, she’ll take it home and turn it into her treasure. She sees something special while most people just pass on by.
You’ll know a girl who loves life by her laugh. She is smiling most of the time. Make her laugh and laugh along with her. When you talk to her, she looks into your eyes. She makes you tell the truth, she helps you to be yourself even when you’re not sure who that is, she doesn’t let you get away with the things others girls do. And you love her for that even when it really pisses you off. She’s also OK when you piss her off, admitting when she’s wrong and standing her ground when she’s not.
She loves to paint even though she’s terrible at it. Tell her that her paintings are beautiful. Encourage her to do the things that bring her joy. Paint along with her. Write her a poem even if you are not a poet. She will tell you that she loves it and she will mean it. Tell her embarrassing stories, show her your weaknesses. She will never laugh at you or make you feel insecure.
She’s dated a republican investment banker, a barista who deals pot, a Turkish-Puerto Rican lawyer, a runner-up from a well-know reality show, and a woman… because she fell in love with who she was… as a person. She does not have a type. She is able to see the good in everyone. And while she holds a spot in her heart for all her past loves, you know those experiences have allowed her to give her entire heart to you and you take solace in the fact that if you leave, there will be a spot for you too.
She’ll fall in love with you even though other men have hurt her and lied to her and deceived her, because along with each moment of pain and hurt and deceit came many more of sharing and faith and laughter. She’s in love with love even when the pain of losing love can seem so unbearable that she will surely die if she goes through it one more time. She’s open to it… because at least she will have loved before she dies. So don’t hurt her. Treasure her and value her and tell her that you treasure her and value her. She will always tell you.
Find a girl who loves life and she might kiss you on the 6th date, make love to you on the 1st date, or tell you she loves you on the 3rd date. There is no rhyme or reason behind these decisions. She is not defined by anyone’s rules. She makes her own. She listens to her gut and her feelings dictate her actions. This gets her in trouble sometimes, but she’s OK with that.
When a girl loves life, she’s happy most of the time, but she cries in times of loss, gets angry when she sees injustice, frustrated by intolerance, and is terrified by how powerless she sometimes feels. Then she finds the strength to move on, speak out against what’s not fair, and takes satisfaction in the small changes she can make all around her. This is what truly makes her happy. Help her make these changes and you will be happy too.
Date a girl who reads and writes and eats and travels and runs. She plays roller derby and paints and swims and does samba. She’s a nurse and a teacher and a non-profit executive. Sometimes she runs the world and other times she just sits on her couch watching reality television, eating cheese, drinking wine, and gossiping with the women in her life. She can’t be placed in a box. She’s happy doing ALL of these things.
And that is why you should date a girl who loves life. She’ll support you when you’re down, show you the most valuable of things when you’re poor, give you her strength when you’re sick, and put you in your place when you’re wrong. You will know that she will be there for you forever if you let her, but only if you’re worthy.
Getting older is no problem, you just have to live long enough.
take chances. tell the truth. fall in love. be random. sing out loud. laugh at a stupid joke. cry. get revenge. apologize. tell someone how much they mean to you. tell the asshole what you feel. let someone know what they're missing. laugh ‘til your stomach hurts.
LIVE LIFE!
so I'm just thinking about how much I don't want my life to be boring. there is so much I want to do, and so many places I want to go. but I don't really think it's ever gonna happen. I just don't wanna be one of those people who work somewhere they hate or live somewhere they don't want to live. but I feel like I'm gonna live here forever and not get a chance to see everything I want to see. I feel like my dreams are to unrealistic.
there's so many different ways to be connected to people. there are the people you feel this unspoken connection to, even though there's not even a word for it. there's the people you've known forever, who know you in this way that other people can't, because they've seen you change, and they've let you change.
And I blame myself because I make things hard, and you're just trying to help
yang paling ngga enak dari telfonan sama seseorang adalah... kita gak bisa liat ekspresi orang itu secara langsung. karena satu-satunya cara yang bisa di pahamin dari orang itu saat ditelfon ya cuma dari suaranya.
poor me, gak tau gue emang termasuk orang yang gampang ditebak atau emang orang lain yang udah ngerti banget gue, kadang orang lain gampang banget tau apa yang gue rasain walaupun dia cuma denger suara gue di telfon..
sayangnya, dia bukan orang lain.
...call failed.
gue diem, dan akhirnya ngelanjutin film yang gue tonton di laptop. judulnya, Voices of a Distant Star. sialan, emang kadang-kadang sikon sama hati bagus banget kerjasamanya.
ini film kartun, tentang dua orang anak junior high school, yang baru lulus. awalnya, si cowok, Noboru, dengan senang hati memberi tahu si cewek, Mikako, 'Kita bisa masuk sekolah
yang sama!' tapi Noboru dikejutkan oleh pernyataan Mikako bahwa mereka akan terpisah jarak, waktu dan galaksi karena Mikako, direkrut Armada Luar Angkasa AS untuk perang menggunakan sejenis mecha melawan sejenis alien yg di sebut Tarsian. karena itu Mikako keliling luar angkasa, sementara Noboru, tetap di bumi.
mereka tetap berhubungan melalui fasilitas text messaging, cuma masalahnya adalah jarak untuk menyampaikan satu pesan makin lama makin panjang. mulai dari hitungan hari, bulan, tahun. ya gak kebayang aja sih, im3 kalah pending deh kayaknya.
mereka tetap berhubungan melalui fasilitas text messaging, cuma masalahnya adalah jarak untuk menyampaikan satu pesan makin lama makin panjang. mulai dari hitungan hari, bulan, tahun. ya gak kebayang aja sih, im3 kalah pending deh kayaknya.
"....As far as any distance will separate us, just one word I would say, I am here." --Noboru
rada ketawa nonton ini, bener-bener film rekomendasian! :) cuma salah nya aja, nonton film yang lagi pas sama sikon.
ada beberapa bahasan yang gue hindarin untuk dibahas. dan sebisa mungkin, gue gak ngebahas itu. so selfish...emang. entah karena apa, gue pikir, gak perlu bahas itu sekarang, karena gue gak mau terlalu mikirin itu sekarang ini.
ps: I will never write anything as well as you've written me. :p
02:41 am
kalo semua hal butuh alasan, gue yakin gue salah satu dari jutaan orang yang selalu mengeluh.
beberapa orang kadang ngga pernah mikir jauh buat ngehadapin masalah nya sendiri. mungkin emang umur ngga ngejamin kedewasaan, karena tolak ukur kedewasaan orang emang ngga selalu bisa diliat dari umurnya.
dari kecil, gue diajarin buat nerima dan bersyukur sama apa yang gue punya. tapi emang dasarnya human nature nya ngga pernah puas, jadi kadang ada aja yang di keluhin. gue suka nanya ke diri sendiri, kalo gue gini nanti gimana, tapi kalo gue gitu terusnya gimana, kenapa waktu itu gue gitu, ya sekian dan sekian. tapi kebiasaan gue dari kecil itu yang ngebawa gue untuk nyoba terima apa yang ada, karena semua itu sebenernya pilihan yang udah gue tentuin sendiri, kan.
bahagia itu sederhana, kata orang.
jadi kenapa masih harus mempersulit apa yang sudah disederhanakan? kecuali jika kesederhanaan nya itu yang ngga bisa membahagiakan, mungkin ada yang salah dari cara kita menerima keadaan.
And I'll pretend like I've got something to say but I've got nothing
perlu berapa kali kamu bertanya mengapa aku menyukai hujan?
dan perlu berapa kali aku katakan aku sangat menyukai hujan?
sungguh, aku jelaskan disini, kepadamu.
ada banyak kata untuk kita melukiskan hujan
sebagaimana banyak kata yang tak mampu mendefinisikan
betapa aku, bahagia bersamamu
bukan nya terkadang ada suatu hal yang tak dapat dijelaskan?
atau mungkin sekedar hanya dapat dirasakan?
seperti itulah.
ketika kita harus menerka apa yang akan dikatakan langit
dan pun langit menjawabnya dengan menunjukkan apa yang dikait
bukan kah beberapa orang membenci nya?
tapi sedikit beberapa orang diantaranya, sangat menunggunya.
jadi ingatkah kamu saat aku selalu mengingatkan
kamu, beda.
seperti itulah.
ada satu kebahagiaan dari rasa keteduhan yang terasa saat rasa merasakan rasa.
sebagaimana utuhnya makna yang terpisahkan jarak dalam sebuah klausa
apa kau sudah mampu simpulkan semua kata?
coba sekali lagi tanyalah lalu, jangan padaku,
tapi pada kaca, saat kamu berkaca.
tentang mengapa seseorang yang menulis ini,
tak mampu menjelaskan betapa dia mensyukuri
adanya yang dihadapanmu sangat membahagiakan nya?
karena persis seperti hujan, ia meneduhkan..
The trend is your friend until it comes to an end.
"I understood very well. once you make a decision in life you can't reverse it."
Date & time: Thursday, 3rd may 2012.
Guru matematika gue, lagi ngajarin materi tentang logika matematika sekarang ini.
Ngga sih, ngga penting apa judul materi nya. tapi yang penting itu apa isinya, dan filosofi yang dia utarain.
Ngga sih, ngga penting apa judul materi nya. tapi yang penting itu apa isinya, dan filosofi yang dia utarain.
Ketika gue lagi pusing dengan "jika 2+3=5 maka gunung api meletus" atau "jika ayam beranak maka matahari terbit dari timur", gue langsung kepikiran jadi gunanya pelajaran ini di aplikasiin ke kehidupan nyata itu apa?
"Ehem. pak, terus gunanya materi ini di kehidupan nyata apa?"
Then....
"Kamu tau ngga, kita hidup dengan dan akan selalu dihadapin sama pilihan. mulai dari bangun, kita harus milih buat makan atau mandi. kalau kita pilih makan, kita milih mau makan roti atau nasi. kalau milih roti, kita pilih mau di bakar atau di panggang, dan akan begitu seterusnya. hidup tuh kayak main catur, sekali kita melangkah buat milih jalan yang kita pilih, akan susah untuk balik lagi." .....he said.
Sumpah, asli.
Iya, filosofi dia emang ada benernya, tapi pertanyaan gue diatas itu ngga kejawab kayaknya, ya?
........lesson learned.
"There are some mistakes that can’t be forgiven, certainly not forgotten. And sometimes saying sorry & apology is not enough"
Freeze this moment a little bit longer, make each sensation a little bit stronger
Jadi, ini postingan klimaks dari beberapa postingan gue kemarin-kemarin, hehe.
"Faith makes all things possible...., love makes all things easy."
do you believe in faith?
setiap gue nulis postingan blog, gue selalu mikir nanti bakal gimana ya. tapi gue ngga tau kalo ternyata, dari satu postingan blog (atau mungkin dua?).........change everything.
"you like him, admit it"
"we're just friend, he said it too :)"
"bitch, you keep it inside. stop pretending and don't hide your feelings. it hurts, right?"
"I know what to do, and I'll take the risk"
you never see the way i look into your eyes, you never realize the love I feel inside. pain and sorrow that haunted me cause the words are left unsaid...
ibaratnya (500) Days of Summer, mungkin gue udah ada di tingkat friendzoned level: Tom Hansen. atau beberapa temen gue bilang, friends with benefits? HAHAHA *banting laptop*
oh, it is love.
Jadi mungkin ceritanya, dari yang awalnya cuma penasaran, tertarik, terus ya ga perlu gue ulang ya. because, is it possible to have flings without love? shit, I'm such a liar. Tapi dari awal mungkin emang gue selalu ngehindar...
after The Grey at Gancy, late lunch early dinner at Oenpao, deep conversation @ J.Co, John Carter, early breakfast @ melawai (lol, you're insane), watched basketball team DBL, cookies & cream and caramel at Bengsol, Bulan Film Nasional 'sejarah adalah sekarang' (man, Ali topan....lol), long conversation @ Lavish, exhibition & payung teduh, The Raid, we celebrated your birthday and watched greek mythology movie, and so many more and more, so many unforgettable moments.
..................selama hampir 2 bulan ini.
Non credo che il destino mi ha portato qui.
Ti amo, diciotto...
When the most I could do was to just blame myself
It's my fault.
I just wish I could take back everything,
just somehow make this all go away.
Maybe I'm being selfish or just scared.
and If I had to explain it, I wouldn't know where to start.
As we ask ourselves, how could we go wrong?
I know what it feels like to be completely broken and hurt
.....................................................Sometimes,
I don’t want to talk about what is bothering me
Because hearts will be broken,
And rumors will be spread.
I said.
Waiting For the Day That We'll Find Our Way
Did you ever fall for someone,"If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in love."
But you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings,
But you just couldn't?
I fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
"I like to making friends with anyone"
Is that why I hide it so no one can see?
But how long will I pretend?
We could have so much more to say
We decide to give it to another day
So...
Captured In Her Eyes
I’m not always as confident as I seem. There are many nights and many days when all I want is to be held. I love being held. Always. Sometimes I don’t want to talk about what is bothering me. I like when boys cry in front of me (when people aren’t afraid to show what they’re really feeling). I don’t like when people run from their true feelings because it doesn’t do anyone any good. I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. I know what it’s like to see something funny and not laugh. I’ve been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart. And my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does. Ever.
What my name means?
Iseng-iseng lagi blog walking, tiba-tiba nemu satu postingan temen gue. isinya, panjang banget. Rada kayak ramalan gitu, gue kira. Tapi pas gue baca sampe bawah, ternyata bukan ramalan. itu diambil dari situs ini (click here!)
Nah, iseng gue nyoba. And the result is...
You entered: Viranisa Nurhasanah Noviani
There are 25 letters in your name.
Those 25 letters total to 120
There are 12 vowels and 13 consonants in your name.
Those 25 letters total to 120
There are 12 vowels and 13 consonants in your name.
Your number is: 3
The characteristics of #3 are: Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.
The expression or destiny for #3:
An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.
The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.
Your Soul Urge number is: 6
A Soul Urge number of 6 means:
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.
With a number 6 Soul Urge, you would like to be appreciated for your ability to handle responsibility. Your home and family are likely to be a strong focus for you, perhaps the strongest focus of your life. Friendship, love, and affection are high on your list of priorities for a happy life. You have a lot of diplomatic tendencies in your makeup, as you a able to rectify and balance situations with an innate skill. You like working with people rather than by yourself. It is extremely important for you to have harmony in your environment at all times.
The positive side of the 6 Soul Urge produces a huge capacity for responsibility; you are always there and ready to assume more than your share of the load. If you possess positive 6 Soul Urges and express them, you are known for your generosity, understanding and deep sympathetic attitude. Strong 6 energy is very giving of love, affection, and emotional support. You may have the inclination to teach or serve your community in other idealistic ways. You have natural abilities to help people. You are also likely to have artistic and creative leanings.
If you have an over-supply of 6 energy in your makeup, you may express some of the negative traits common to this number. With such a strong sympathetic attitude, it is easy to become too emotional. Sometimes the desires to render help can be over done, and it can become interfering and an attitude that is too protective, rather than helpful. The person with too much 6 energy often finds that people tend to take advantage of this very giving spirit. You may tend to repress your own needs so that you can cater to the demands from others. At times, there may be a tendency in this, for becoming over-loaded with such demands, and as a result become resentful.
Your Inner Dream number is: 6
An Inner Dream number of 6 means:
You dream of guiding and fostering the perfect family in the perfect home. You crave the devotion from offspring and a loving spouse. You picture yourself in the center of a successful domestic unit.
You dream of guiding and fostering the perfect family in the perfect home. You crave the devotion from offspring and a loving spouse. You picture yourself in the center of a successful domestic unit.
Please, please, please, let me get what I want.
“Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.” -Dr. SeussExpectations?
No expectations mean there is no risk of disappointment, right?
But I can't imagine going on when there are no more expectations.
Okay,
It feels like everything's complete when we stay at our 'comfort zone'
Yes, it seems that we're enjoying, a lot.
There's something, between us?
Somewhere in this town
Gue tipe orang yang suka hunting. Entah itu hunting makanan, hunting film, atau hunting tempat. Setiap gue jalan sama temen gue, biasanya gue recommend tempat yang menurut gue..... jarang di datengin orang, tapi tempat itu nyaman. Ya kalo bahasa lain nya sih, 'pewe'.
Jadi beberapa hari ini, gue lagi sibuk-sibuknya belajar buat midtest #halah.
Harusnya sih, gue demo sama sekolah gue.
Karena, disaat sekolah lain libur seminggu, sekolah gue malah midtest 2 minggu *banting laptop*
Nah, kemarin-kemarin, disaat gue penat-penatnya belajar, gue ngajak temen gue buat nemenin gue belajar. Niatnya sih belajar bareng, tapi ternyata malah ga nyentuh buku sama sekali, hahaha. Akhirnya gue ngajak ke satu coffee shop. Tempat ini, one of my favorite place. Dari beberapa kali gue kesini, biasanya gue sendirian, ngalone.
Biasalah,................................................................................................................................Forever alone.
Tapi ternyata, kadang suatu tempat emang lebih berasa nyaman, kalau kita ngga sendiri.
I have no idea what's going on.
"People should be able to say how they feel-- how they really feel."
"This is not how you treat your friend."
-Tom, (500) days of Summer.
How about the truth?
How about me?
Here,
With the unexplainable things.
Is it possible to describe a feeling?
Because the feelings I feel,
are more than words can ever describe.
'It's pathetic how we can't live with the things we can't understand.
How we need everything labeled, and explained, and deconstructed.'
well, it's fine and fun.
Take me over, Take me closer.
Do we choose who we fall in love with?
Or does it just happen whether we want it or not?
Because, like what I've said..
We can't close our heart,
To the things we don't want to feel.
So,
What can I do?
What should I do?
And rumors will be spread.
I've convinced everyone else that I don't like
I've convinced everyone else that I don't love
Now, all I need to do is convince myself.
Is it too late?
Up Coming Movies 2012
Karena beberapa bulan ini lagi sibuk-sibuknya #halah, gue terpaksa harus vacuum dari film-film yang ada di bioskop maupun dvd. Padahal, biasanya gue selalu hunting dvd ke mana-mana. Sekarang miris banget kalau liat koleksi dvd-dvd gue yang... engga pernah nambah. Semua dvd gue rata-rata udah ditonton lebih dari 3 kali.
I'm not going to school today, jadi tadi gue iseng-iseng searching upcoming movies 2012 di google. Ada beberapa upcoming movies yang must watch banget.
1. Gone (February 24, 2012)
One night, a young woman named Jill returns home to find her sister's bed empty. She's convinced the serial killer who kidnapped her two years before has come back to finish the job. But the police do not believe Jill, who knows time is running out. With no one to turn to, she sets off to find her sister and face her abductor once and for all.
2. The Forgiveness of Blood
An Albanian family caught up in a blood feud. Nik (Tristan Halilaj) is a carefree teenager in a small town with a crush on the school beauty and ambitions to start his own small internet business. His world is suddenly up-ended when his father becomes entangled in a dispute that leaves a fellow villager murdered. According to a centuries-old code of law known as the Kanun, Nik's family owes a life in return. Nik finds himself the prime target and becomes confined to home while his younger sister Rudina (Sindi Lacej) is forced to leave school and take over their father's business.
3. Dorothy of Oz (April, 2012)
Summoned by Glinda, Dorothy and Toto return to the land of Oz. Joined by her old friends the Scarecrow, the Tin Woodman and the Lion, Dorothy sets out on a perilous journey to stop the Jester from using the power of the Wicked Witch of the West’s wand to turn the people of Oz into puppets.
4. Wrath of the Titans (March 30, 2012)
After Ares betrays Zeus to the Titans, Perseus treks to the underworld to rescue Zeus, overthrow the Titans and save mankind.
A decade after his heroic defeat of the monstrous Kraken, Perseus (Worthington) –the demigod son of Zeus (Neeson)–is attempting to live a quieter life as a village fisherman and the sole parent to his 10-year old son, Helius. Meanwhile, a struggle for supremacy rages between the gods and the Titans. Dangerously weakened by humanity’s lack of devotion, the gods are losing control of the imprisoned Titans and their ferocious leader, Kronos, father of the long-ruling brothers Zeus, Hades (Fiennes) and Poseidon (Huston). The triumvirate had overthrown their powerful father long ago, leaving him to rot in the gloomy abyss of Tartarus, a dungeon that lies deep within the cavernous underworld. Perseus cannot ignore his true calling when Hades, along with Zeus’ godly son, Ares (Ramirez), switch loyalties and make a deal with Kronos to capture Zeus. The Titans’ strength grows stronger as Zeus’ remaining godly powers are siphoned, and hell is unleashed on earth. Enlisting the help of the warrior Queen Andromeda (Pike), Poseidon’s demigod son, Argenor (Kebbell), and fallen god Hephaestus (Nighy), Perseus bravely embarks on a treacherous quest into the underworld to rescue Zeus, overthrow the Titans and save mankind.
5. Step Up 4 (July 27, 2012)
6. the Amazing Spiderman (July 3, 2012)
Peter Parker (Andrew Garfield) is going back to high school when the next "Spider-Man" hits theaters in the summer of 2012. The film will focus on a teenager grappling with both contemporary human problems and amazing super-human crises.
7. The Odd Life of Timothy Green (August 15, 2012)
A childless couple, unable to conceive, buries all their wishes for a baby in a box in their backyard. One day, they wake up to find that a child is born, but the child is not all that it appears.
8. flight 7500 (August 31, 2012)
On a transpacific airliner, passengers encounter what appears to be a supernatural force.
9. House at the End of the Street (Spetember 21, 2012)
The story centers on a teen girl (Jennifer Lawrence) who moves with her mom (Elisabeth Shue) to a new town and learns that their home is across the street from a house where a double murder took place. Complications ensue when the teen befriends the massacre's sole surviving son (Max Thieriot).
10. Cloud Atlas (October, 2012)
Story is a time-shifting, kaleidoscopic – weaving six interlinking narratives, with diverse settings from the savagery of a Pacific Island in the 1850s to a dystopian Korea of the near future.
11. Paranormal Activity 4 (October 19, 2012)
A continuation of the Paranormal Activity franchise. Paramount has not yet given an indication on the time period or characters.
12. The Twilight Saga; Breaking Dawn Part II (November 16, 2012)
and many more.
Jadi mungkin, abis bulan February nanti, gue akan nge borong dvd-dvd yang belum gue tonton beberapa bulan belakangan ini hehehe.
it wasn't your fault, it was mine.
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gue selalu butuh beberapa menit buat mikir kata-kata apa yang mau gue ketik di setiap postingan blog gue. kadang, apa yang udah gue tulis terpaksa gue hapus lagi dan diganti kata-kata yang baru. dan kadang, udah panjang lebar ngetik di dasbor ini, gue malah mencet close tab (ha-ha!)
"This page is asking you to confirm that you want to leave - data you have entered may not be saved."
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"leave page"
gue selalu mikir sama apa yang mau gue tulis dan bakal gue share.
apa tulisan gue bakal nyinggung orang lain? apa tulisan gue bisa di publish?
secara, blog atau social network e.g twitter itu bisa di baca sejuta umat, ngga semua tentang kita pantes buat di share, iya kan?
and honestly, sebenernya ngga pernah ada maksud apa-apa kok dari postingan-postingan itu:)the truth is incontrovertible, malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it, but in the end, there it is.
Regards,
Viranisa N.
